I want to talk about something very important to me and I feel like this picture (which has made it in to my top 10 best sunset photos I’ve taken) can represent, at least, a small piece. I see magnificence, I see beauty, I see art, I see vastness, I see hope… I see God.
He’s been controversial for many generations, an enigma that people have questioned time and again. He has been adored and worshiped by one half and completely scorned by the other. Whatever you believe in, I just want to share my experience with God and how I see Him.
All of my life, I’ve been a Christian. Why? Well, because my family was Christian. We went to church (which I hated at some point by the way), we prayed a lot (which I’d hate whenever they made me do it out loud), and He was just constantly “around.” Did that mean I had a relationship with Him? Nope. Not at all. Once my depression began, that’s when I started begging to a God who just wouldn’t give me the light I needed.
I was angry at Him, I figured I wasn’t enough for anyone around me, why would I be enough to some God I can’t even see. A God who won’t help me escape the darkness and heal me the way He supposedly can… It’s when I hit rock bottom that I decided I can’t do this anymore. Either, I fight for my life or I end it. That’s when He came in.
I would love to tell you that things became instantly better the minute I developed a personal relationship with God but that’s just not life now, is it? My journey has been on-going, chaotic, and frustrating. But there’s been a light in the midst of it all that hasn’t burned out. And I got to a point where I realized, it never will. And the journey has been so worth it.
Loving God and following Him, was a CHOICE. I want everyone who has been given the wrong impression about God and my kind of Christianity to truly know this. I voluntarily chose to believe in Him. Anyone who forces you to, is not the right person you should be speaking to about this. The God I serve is Merciful, Peaceful, Righteous, Unconditional, Faithful and Jealous with His children. Does He have His own set of rules and consequences? Of course. But He is not evil.
He suffers when you’re in any kind of pain, He rejoices with you when you’re happy, He defends you when there are people against you, He never abandons you no matter what you may be going through and, most importantly, He LOVES you even when you hate Him.
I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.C.S Lewis
I can honestly tell you, if I didn’t have my own experiences and proof through stories and testimonies about how amazing God is, I wouldn’t even think to talk about it, I promise. The only reason I can is because of what I’ve seen with my own two eyes. He calls all Christians to speak and preach the Gospel, not to shove it down people’s throats, verbally and physically abuse them, and hold them at gun-point until they say “I believe.” It is a choice.
At the end of the day, we all choose to believe in what we want. However, it hurts when I hear people despise the God that saved my life without the chance of talking to someone who can give them the picture of who He truly is first and then making their decisions about what they think of Him after. That’s why I feel it’s so important to find the right person to talk to about this IF you are curious about God.
It is a choice
All I know is that Christianity is not easy, it does not make me perfect, and it does not give me the right to judge others. If you’re not getting that feeling from the people you are talking to in regards to this, you should probably search elsewhere. If anybody is curious and wants to hear about my story and what my relationship with God is like, all you have to do is ask. Either way, He’ll be coming up a lot in my blogs.
God bless each and every one of you! and Thank you for reading xo
“Because of Him, I am Triumphant.”