Soooo… I kinda did something out of my comfort zone this past weekend. We’re all familiar with that zone though, right? The untouchable zone that never fails to make you feel safe and happy in your own personal space. The one you try your damnedest not to put a single toe outside the line?
Well, we all know we miss out on a huge chunk of life when we choose to stay within our personal bubble. Even when it’s terrifying, there’s nothing more satisfying than taking that one tiny step… Although, I’ll be honest, the step I took was a pretty huge one for me.
I decided to go to the beach. Without any make-up on. With someone I hardly knew. Ya’ll, when I tell you that my heart was beating so fast, it’s hard to believe I was able to keep up. But the big reason why I was so scared was because I have a skin condition called Vitiligo which causes dis-pigmentation of the skin. I have a white, oval-shaped mark on the right side of my forehead as well as over my entire right eye.
Needless to say, I wore nice, big sunglasses to cover most of it up. I’m not going to lie. I totally thought I was going to be brave enough to whip those babies off and say “Here’s my natural beauty! Take it or leave it!” But as we got closer to the beach, my heart started pounding faster. As we started to set up our site, I began sweating (and it was obviously an extremely hot day). I thought, “It’s time.
Sometimes we have to step out of our comfort zones. We have to break the rules. And we have to discover the sensuality of fear. We need to face it, challenge it, dance with it.Kyra Davis
”I still hesitated. At some point, the heat became so unbearable that taking a swim would be the remedy to our “human roasting.” Well, at this point, I’m like “F*ck, it’s now or never. Can’t back out now.” Reluctantly, but with, somewhat, mustered up bravery, I lifted my sunglasses and revealed who I was. Want to know what didn’t happen?
I wasn’t laughed at. I wasn’t given a nasty look. The whole beach didn’t stop and stare. The entire world didn’t end. But want to know what did happen? I felt a weight lift off my shoulders like I never imagined. It took me 30 minutes, but as soon as I did, I felt free. Because to me, physical beauty had always been a top priority. And when I saw that I wasn’t “perfect” anymore, I felt my value diminish.
I’m defined by nothing except what is in my heart
But my “beauty” mark doesn’t define who I am, no matter how many times my mind may try to tell me it needs to disappear to finally be normal again or to feel beautiful again. I’m the same girl who loves to laugh and joke and smile and love and care for others. I’m defined by nothing except what is in my heart. And I got a lot going on in there ❤
Step out of your comfort zone, even if it’s the scariest thing in world. You’ll quickly realize it happens to be the most liberating feeling, especially if it’s something you’ve been holding on to for a while. It’s time to let that weight go! Maybe my next step out of my comfort zone is to show you all what my natural beauty looks like.