Conceiving a baby was such a difficult time in my life. I was blessed to get pregnant with my first son after 6 months of trying! At about 7 weeks, I was told that he would result in a miscarriage because his heart rate was too low and was scheduled for a D & C procedure. My family convinced me to get a second opinion before this was done.
I’m so happy I did because 9 months later, I was blessed with a healthy little boy! I waited a few years to try to conceive a second child. I wanted Constantine to have a sibling to grow up with.
I was 35 years old, so it was difficult to get pregnant, but I did! But, at around 7 or 8 weeks, I felt like something was wrong… I had cramping. I went to see my doctor and he told me the heartbeat was low and that I would miscarry.
This time they were right and the next day I started to bleed. I saw the little baby fetus in the toilet… I was heartbroken. Wanting to conceive so badly and to have it end in a miscarriage was devastating!! Of course, I blamed myself.
Did I not eat enough, drank too much coffee, or was just too skinny??? Well, we kept trying and within 6 months, I was pregnant again! I was terrified. I kept looking for signs that the baby was ok and I wouldn’t miscarry again.
When I went for my first visit, the heartbeat was low again but the doctor was more optimistic this time. She said to come back in a few days. I knew in my heart that I was losing another baby…
I became very sad and the next morning, I started to bleed. I was devastated. Why would I conceive again within 6 months, only to have it result in another miscarriage. It seemed so unfair. All of my friends were getting pregnant. I felt like it was all my fault.
We stopped trying for a little bit and I went to Greece for the summer. When I returned, my struggle to conceive continued. My doctors ran a number of tests and everything was normal but I was 36. I didn’t want to give up hope.
Finally after almost 2 years, 2 miscarriages and acupuncture’s, I became pregnant… and I’m now blessed with 2 beautiful boys! Never give up hope, even when something seems impossible! Miracles do happen!
