I got married five years ago and got divorced a year ago. Now, I live with my ex-husband. Yes, I know that sounds crazy lol. I married him because I was in love with him. Well we got married and I got pregnant, we had our baby and we were the happiest parents ever.
Then life was getting really tough. I’m talking about money and Job wise…yes, I thought the world was going to end. I started to have depression, anxiety, worry, stress. Life for me wasn’t too good during that time that I was forgetting about my family.
My husband got into drugs, bad influences and I didn’t know at the time. When I found out, I was so devastated, I literally thought I was going to die.
We were living in Mexico and my parents lived here in US. So I moved here with my son. I left my husband because I felt like he did me wrong.
While I was moving, I thought I was done because I felt like a loser, ugly, stupid everything bad you can think of. I stopped eating and everything for me was dark. My son was having the worst time because I forgot about him. I forgot he needed me.
Fast forward, my ex-husband moved here because he wanted to be close to his son. Trust me, I hated him. I didn’t like the idea of him moving here. I was just in a bad place. My anxiety was getting worse and my depression was to the max. I decided to get divorced, so we did.
Time past and I wanted to forgive and forget. Yes, it was so hard but I pushed myself to do it. Which you should never push yourself to do something when is not the time yet.
Well, I thought I already did so I tried to be in a relationship with him again but it was just not the right time. Then, situations started to bring us closer without any effort on our part.
One day, I just woke up in his room with our son. I even woke up surprised at how I even accepted to stay in his house when I hated him…weird huh?
Now, we are in the best time of our relationship. He helps me so much with my issues (anxiety, stress) and he is always making sure I’m ok. Let me just put it like this; when it’s time, it will happen. So life is short and enjoy what you have 🙂
Lisita
