This poem holds a very special place in my heart and it was written almost 2 years after I wrote “A Secret Dimension.” (Oct. 5 2013) A lot had happened during that time, ending up moving to another state and practically a new life. I wanted to write about this new chapter that, although wasn’t getting rid of my past completely, it was the beginning of a journey of self-discovery and self-love that’s led me to where I am today. I still had so much growing and loving to do when I wrote this poem but a tiny spark had been lit within me, telling me there’s so much more to my story than what’s already happened. It was a spark that was never there before. I would be thrown curveballs, face issues that I thought were behind me, make mistakes I could’ve avoided and fighting against the darkness that was trying to reel me back in any chance it got.
But not only had my relationship with God gotten stronger through the years, I also discovered a strength within myself that I didn’t even think existed. I’ll talk more about my poems but I wanted this one in particular to be one that can possibly light a spark within you. The changes don’t happen over night, even if you are physically moving away. There’s a lot you have to do and go through that you mostly won’t be prepared for, but that’s where the really valuable lessons lie. That’s where you transform into the person you were always meant to be.
She’s changed so much in these past years. A girl who had so many fears. The pain she went through everyday. She’d fight but it would only stay. The tears held back, the tears let go, This illness was her biggest foe. She thought that this was just a curse, but then it happened, something worse. Do hearts deceive? No doubt they do. She loved a boy she thought she knew. To sweet talk was his special knack, but then he stabbed her in the back. He “loved” her hard until no end, when really it was just pretend. Through this time, she fell apart. It broke and bruised her young weak heart. When she couldn’t anymore, she found another open door. A new life waiting to begin, a new girl living in her skin. A chance not many could obtain. Instead of losing, she would gain. Now, at last, she feels alive. The day she’s waited to arrive. There are moments here and there where life can be too much to bear. The journey’s tough yet possible to live her life, not vain, but full. Now she knows her faith and strength could help her go through any length. Though there will be trying times, Don’t forget the mountain she climbed to end up where she’s meant to be. A girl with chains has been set free.